It isn’t a real word, but it should be, and my picture would be next to the definition in the dictionary. This post started out as a devastatingly incredible post about how awesome God is, and that every word He says is done. “Let there be light. Earth turn. Stars shine. Tide roll. Bees pollinate. Heart beat. On and on it goes, every word He speaks is obeyed.
God gets what He wants, right? Wrong.
About half way through writing this post, I couldn’t write it any longer. It read of everything I am not. God has given me several tasks, most of which I have outright refused to do.
My greatest sin right now is disobedience. He says do, and I kick my heals together, and for no reason other than self-seeking stubbornness, I say, “No, I’m not doing it.” Of course, maybe not those words exactly, but that’s the interpretation to my excuses and inaction.
I’ve thought about how to do what He’s asked, prayed about what He’s asked, planned about how to accomplish it, now all that’s left (and with all the preparation should now be the easy step) I am left with the “Do.”
When my butt hits the chair, there’s a giant fear. Fear that what I do is mediocre. Fear that what I write will offend others. Fear that people may actually like it, which sounds ridiculous, but it’s real. Fear that obedience could cost me relationships with friends and family.
In the end, it’s just another excuse to be selfish, lazy, and disobedient.
Jesus, my example, the One I say I want to be like, obeyed and it cost Him His life: His innocent life. And it wasn’t taken from Him, He gave it.
That’s right, He gave it.
He drank the cup of suffering when He had nothing to gain for Himself but knowing that He was doing what God asked Him too.
I beg of you, save yourself from this gut wrenching disease of obediphobia. Look in the mirror today and ask, “Self, what has God asked me to do?” Then do it.
I am. Ready or not, here I come!
Here’s a little ditty from Todd Agnew, which sums these thoughts up better than I have written them, and was the inspiration for the original post I started.