Obediphobia

Posted: December 21st, 2011 | Author: | Filed under: My Thoughts, Writing | 5 Comments »

Obediphobia [oh-bee-duh-foh-bee-uh]: the fear of obedience.

It isn’t a real word, but it should be, and my picture would be next to the definition in the dictionary. This post started out as a devastatingly incredible post about how awesome God is, and that every word He says is done.  “Let there be light. Earth turn. Stars shine. Tide roll. Bees pollinate. Heart beat.  On and on it goes, every word He speaks is obeyed.

God gets what He wants, right? Wrong.

Enter me.

About half way through writing this post, I couldn’t write it any longer. It read of everything I am not. God has given me several tasks, most of which I have outright refused to do.

My greatest sin right now is disobedience.  He says do, and I kick my heals together, and for no reason other than self-seeking stubbornness, I say, “No, I’m not doing it.” Of course, maybe not those words exactly, but that’s the interpretation to my excuses and inaction.

I’ve thought about how to do what He’s asked, prayed about what He’s asked, planned about how to accomplish it, now all that’s left (and with all the preparation should now be the easy step) I am left with the “Do.”

When my butt hits the chair, there’s a giant fear. Fear that what I do is mediocre.  Fear that what I write will offend others. Fear that people may actually like it, which sounds ridiculous, but it’s real.  Fear that obedience could cost me relationships with friends and family.

In the end, it’s just another excuse to be selfish, lazy, and disobedient.

Jesus, my example, the One I say I want to be like, obeyed and it cost Him His life: His innocent life. And it wasn’t taken from Him, He gave it.

That’s right, He gave it.

He drank the cup of suffering when He had nothing to gain for Himself but knowing that He was doing what God asked Him too.

I beg of you, save yourself from this gut wrenching disease of obediphobia. Look in the mirror today and ask, “Self, what has God asked me to do?” Then do it.

I am.  Ready or not, here I come!

Here’s a little ditty from Todd Agnew, which sums these thoughts up better than I have written them, and was the inspiration for the original post I started.

 


  • http://christiandfahey.wordpress.com/ Christian Fahey

    This is really convicting, Moon. I wonder if the key for us is to “turn our faces into the wind”, which will actually help us fly. In other words, instead of fleeing potential rejection, we run towards it and conquer it. Hmmm…..

  • Ron

    Great post Moon…I definitely have a case of Obediphobia as well…along with the detailitis and excusitis diseases…and I’m in denial about my addiction to procrastination. Thankfully, I have friends like you (and Christian) who write amazing, thought provoking blogs like this one that shine a light on these diseases that are worse than a cancer. Luckily, these diseases all have the same cure:

    Action.

    “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” – Maryanne Williamson

    Thank you for truly helping to liberate my fears by overcoming yours and posting this blog!!

  • http://kenneyediting.wordpress.com Susan

    Well said, Chris. I think all of us suffer from this to one extent or another – ALL of our pictures could go next to the word in the dictionary. May God help us turn that obediphobia into obediphilia.

  • http://www.crmooney.com C.R. Mooney

    Christian: How true that pushing through resistance is what makes us stronger.

    Ron: Wow man. That quote. Just Wow. It’s me.

    Sue: We’re making words up all over the place! I love it!

  • Deborah

    Thank you son for the word ,that we all fall short to,obediphobia. It goes to say that we need to always be before the Lord,praying with out ceasing.I wonder to myself if I spoke up or just stood in the standards of our God how many family and friends I would have left,it is a scary thing to think on.In being obedient,love your fellow man,be a help to him ,listen when you ask how are you,take a stranger off the street for coffee and lunch,look for those who are needy,and love them.We sometime make the things of God so hard,when He said my yoke and burden is easy,let us open our eyes and just look around there many who we can share our lives with,that are longing to have just a small touch of friendship to know they are loved.Hmmmmmm that is obediphilia … obedience;;;;;;:) mom just saying,pointing the finger at myself too